nick

01:50 am: i am sitting here typing thinking of all the things i have done in the past to people and wondering why i have to be the way i am. i do not know why i have so many people claiming to be my friend because i believe i have done nothing to deserve them. i wish some people would learn that they don't have to act like a celebrity to make it in the world. the ironic part is that many celebrities got to be where they are because of their eccentric ways and actions. because so many people try to fit in and follow the leaders, i am going to bash every group out there. preps: they try to act real cool and be all prissy and shit just to act like all the other people right beside them. what makes them better then the person behind them....nothing. emo kids: okay now there may have been a few rejects that started the whole trend that were relatively cool people...but now you've got thousands of kids thinking that they're rejected. this does not work. punk: there is not too much i have on punk because they would be pretty cool if they weren't stupid. grunge look: i don't think kurt would be too happy with what grunge is today. just because its slower and you don't really need to wear the best of clothes doesnt mean that you should write bad lyrics as well. come on. ghetto: okay let's see....you get bad poetry, tone-deaf people, a "phat" beat, drugs, and some "bling bling", put it in a blender, and press the shred button and you get yourself people from the ghetto. goths: well, i saved the best for last. the goths. now you see i love to hate the goths because the goths think they're smarter then everybody else. i say this because they don't hate somebody because they're a nice person, they hate them because they're happy. thats okay.....but the thing is if they were truly as unhappy as they pretend to be, they wouldn't care. that's the whole thing with them. its BS that they're truly unhappy because after a while they go emo. always.

so there you go...theres a group after every celebrity out there. i take after none
y'all think about that at night when you're talking to your friends online bitching about why you're unhappy

04:27 pm: Take the quiz: "What High School Stereotype Are You?"

Normal
You're normal. You don't quite fit into a label, you just are.Congratulations on being boring and plain.

uhh okay

09:41 pm: i LOVE how every1 thinks their life sucks
people dont appreciate anything you do for them. they really dont.
its funny too
i laugh at them
but really, when have you seen someone really happy under the age of 18?
i never did
i never will
n if i did id pay them
just 4 the hell of it

10:12 pm: i cant think of anything really......i cant wait to be on tour with my band eatin glazed donuts with a smirnoff rasberry in my hand and a great girl on my lap just soakin up the crowd

i think of all of this and i kno in the back of my mind something will still be missing....i just dont know what

10:13 pm: i am so confused. i thought the ppl at battle of the bands were supposed to be GOOD!!!!!!! jesus christ the vocals all sucked cuz they put distortion in it and it sounded sooooo bad. me mike steve and whoever plays bass 4 us next year are gonna win until weve won it all. stupid idiots...honestly.




























u think you know.........but you got no idea

03:42 pm: hahaha.....i just downloaded 4 godsmack cds, 3 metallica cds, korn concert footage, disturbed-believe, grand theft auto vice city, and 3 duran duran cds for FREE. talk 2 me if u want in on it

12:19 am: nothing in my life ever works......i went on vacation this week but id call it more hell then a vacation. i didnt eat the entire week cuz the fucking canadians cant cook a goddamn thing, and on top of that, love sucks

08:04 pm: ok so i was watchin a sho on spike tv with mike and there was a guy who was driving his LAWN TRACTOR down the road drunk. in the video u can hear the police crackin up and then when the guy finally decides to stop, he goes to get up and just passes out on the road. it was at this point that i said "ahh shit, theres me in 40 years"

04:32 pm: life is wasting away
hate burning up it starts to flare
but i cannot come clean
my life is full of this despair
people are ripping me apart
not gonna care but i have to stare
hating is so far inside of you
and it goes to rise up in you
memories i cant escape
all this i love to hate

i will never go back
start taking them back
people hate all of me
bring it back to me
life sucks so much and its fucked up
its not right that we pretend to be alright
i need to escape it all i cant get away
the last thing i want to ever do is stay

THEY WONT MAKE ME
THEY WONT TAKE ME
IM THE FAKE
I WANT BUT I DONT TAKE

i try to not convince myself
that its other people to
i dont want to see
im not close to you
so then it is me

i will never go back
start taking them back
people hate all of me
bring it back to me
life sucks so much and its fucked up
its not right that we pretend to be alright
i need to escape it all i cant get away
the last thing i want to ever do is stay

i wont be there (continue then fade out)



tell me how it is

03:36 pm: four i just said you faget piece of shit on the ground
im bored outta my mind and thats never good........every time i get bored i do sumthin not quite right........i think one day im gonna snap. BAD. heres my perfect suicide idea...my dad has a '85 porsche 911, and i have complete access to it. so im gonna take it out when i snap and see how far i can drive around till the cops catch me. then ill get into a 120 mph pursuit till i decide theres no way out of it....at that point ill drive into the woods and get killed instantly ; )


that would make headlines.......hehe